I think I might be done for a while
burn out. there's no other way to put it honestly. feels like I've been working non stop for years. if not working I'm thinking about work. what next what next what next just kept me going for a long time.
it's all coming crashing down now. I have lost all energy and drive. its not tiredness and I don't even know if you can call it burn out. I'm just indifferent.
I spent the greater part of this year building a startup. we tried many things but the bottomline is we simply couldn't take off. 100s of signups meant nothing in the space we were in. I spoke to people, did as much as I could. spent many nights and days and weekends just working or tinkering or doing something. so yeah I don't really have a life anymore.
I'm also quite likely unemployable at this point. idk who needs my skillset. a generalist. I did a bit of everything last few months. I mean I had to. there is no delegation in a startup.
I am thankful to the mentors and guides. but listen there's only so much they can do. they can give you guidance but at the end of the day you still need to do shit.
did I give my best? yes. but my best wasn't enough. the game is gone somewhere. just rejections from vcs and accelerators. tech is a war zone now. I know nothing other than tech so I'm still here.
but I dont know what to do anymore. I tried everything. now I cant get myself to do anything. even writing this was hard but it had to be done, my mind was killing me. I had to get these words out on paper.
I'm too tired to describe my complete journey but in short I wrote blogs, newsletters, created landing pages, talked to users, brainstormed product ideas, crafted user flows, made pitch decks, projections, accelerator applications hell I even did TikTok.
In my personal opinion I have been prolific. I did as much as I could. pushed myself as much as I could. and now I'm done. I probably reached this point earlier but now it's becoming increasingly clear to me that I can't actually do anything. it all feels pointless. I see no light at the end of the tunnel anymore.
thanks for reading my useless rant.
fin.